Well, I just put all three of my kids on the school bus for the first time this year, and now I am sad. I don't work today so I have seven hours to sit home and cry. :) No, I won't really do that. But I guess it has finally caught up with me after my bragging on Saturday about not getting upset when I left Greyson at Pre-K on Thursday.
He was so happy to finally get to ride the bus with his sisters this morning! The bus driver, Mr. Bingham, often drove a mini-bus last year, and was kind enough to pull into our long driveway, all the way up in front of our garage for the girls to hop on. However, today he was in the full-size bus so he had to wait for us at the street. Also, he arrived a few minutes before we expected, so we weren't out there waiting like we usually try to be. The girls ran on ahead and boarded. Then, the bus sat there while a couple of cars stacked up behind it, and everyone watched as Greyson and I followed slowly. (The complete opposite of his cousin, Pejo, Greyson does not run everywhere. Especially, it seems, when it would be helpful for him to do so!) But oh, what a big smile he had on his face! This giant bus waiting there just for him! Finally, he got on and sat near the front with Susannah, on the seat in front of Makaley. Then they all three waved at me as they drove off for their five-minute ride to school.
My life has just changed forever, hasn't it?
And then, there was this other conversation today. First of all, I should explain that as I was finishing up my paper route this morning, I was admonishing myself because I feel like I am always falling short of being the mom that I want to be. I am so tired some nights (like last night, in particular) that I am not patient enough, I'm easily irritated and uninterested in playing games or doing all the little tiny things that are constantly asked of me. I don't want to be like that as often as I have been lately. I want to be less selfish and always happy to make time for my children! I want them to love me and be proud of me and when they grow up, I want them to be able to say that I was the best mom ever! So I have some things to work on.
Well, I was rushing to get everything done this morning and everyone ready on time, so Greg stayed a few extra minutes and helped get hair brushed, etc. Susannah came into the kitchen as I was making her PB & J sandwich and said something about that. I said, "Yes, you have the best daddy in the world, don't you?" She agreed, and then Makaley from the entryway added, "And the best mom!" Then Susannah said, "Well, we should just say the best family because we have best grandparents, too! And the best friends!"
And that was exactly what I needed to hear. So for now, all is right in my little corner of the world. If I could just get these tears to stop falling ... :)
1 comment:
What a sweet post. I think it's great that you want to do better, but you should also give yourself credit for all the great things you are already doing. Your kids are happy and healthy and you are a great mom! And, on a side note, I anticipate tears of my own next week when my kids go off to school. :)
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